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I have been meaning to write again for awhile but didn't obviously. Right now it's crunch time, finishing my last week of school next week so when break starts I will update. Not that anyone reads this...

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The Gathering 08

Hi everyone.

I have been back in "Babylon" for about a week and a half now. The gathering was a lot easier than last year as far as conditions go, and because I knew what to expect. It was in the Big Sandy forest area (or Pinedale area if that helps) of Wyoming. Beautiful white Poplar/Aspen trees all over with little nobs that looked like eyes. We were about 8800ft in elevation, and there was a 300ft difference and a mile and a half of walking between where we parked and our campsite. The hike in and out were the hardest parts for me.

Our camp was in the downtown rainbow area if you will, really close to main circle, trade circle, water spigots, and the other kitchens. Our camp had three fire pits, seats with backs and one bleacher seating bench, a solar shower, awesome kitchen, and the best shitter.

We served food all day and had a foot washing station, people to pray with, scripture reading station, prayer tent, people giving away clothes at trade circle, sandal/clothes repair, and a worship service at night.

One night we also did the suitcase sideshow (a marionette puppet show about the leper, the prostitute, and the tax collector from Matthew complete with creepy music and demon voices) at a neighboring camp, it was really intense and most who stayed and watched enjoyed it but we got asked not to do it again because it had canned music which is against the rainbow rules.

Unfortunately for the protection of people we came into contact with and for our camp I won't go any further into detail with stories. But here are some main points of the things God reminded me of again this year:

1. It can be really hard to love and respect people who...I'll put it this way... believe differently than you.

2. Who you worship makes all the difference. Satan is the King of everything counterfeit, deceiving many. Without God a drum circle and dancing around the fire is just empty and pointless but when you are doing it in worship to God it changes everything and is so much more full of life.

3. People who "persecute" our camp are usually angry from past hurtful experiences with "the church" and not us personally. So not to worry because by the end of the trip they usually see that we are not like those people and become friends with us. Because God is good.

4. God's timing is perfect, everyone we talked to or helped were divinely appointed to meet us.

Thats all that I can come up with right now but those are the main ones.

Also there are some people in our church who are getting buses and turning them into homes and traveling to all the regional gatherings this year. They will be the Jesus Kitchen caravan, so if you remember to pray for them that would be sweet!

Thanks to everyone who was praying for me and my team we had a great trip!

Love, Kate

Leaving for the Rainbow Gathering!

Hi, the training school went really well, we have a good team, and I am excited to see what God will do through us. Please pray for me and my team while we are there (6/21-7/6). That is all, I will write about the trip when I get back. Peace and Love in the Lord! Kate

I'll Be Off Hanging Out With Hippies In The Forest...

Whelp it's that time again, I am going to the Rainbow Gathering again this year. The training school started already, which has been really great so far. I feel like I can relax and enjoy it this year since I helped plan it and am familiar, dare I say friends, with the Steiger people now.

The gathering itself should be great this year too, it's in Wyoming so it should be a dry heat during the day and cold at night right? I hope so I hate hot and humid weather. After last year I think I can survive any gathering now. Plus we have a great team, just genuine, nice, fun people.

Today was a free day so I went to Stillwater with some peeps and it was pretty cool, I love river towns or towns with great boardwalks/warfs/docks on the lakes/oceans. But doesn't everybody?

Our house in Chaska sold too! So that sucks that it's finally happening, and I won't have a home anymore. But good because it's closure to that chapter of my life I guess...Boooo growing up...anyway, at least I can vacation in Arizona now to see my parents. And my dogs, which I never thought I would be one of those people but I really do miss them!

Ok well I guess that's all for now. I will definitely write a blog when I get back in a month. Until please be praying for us and Adieu.

I Got it Sorted

Hey

Well the day after I wrote the last blog I got it sorted out and God began to heal my heart. Every Wed. morning my house has prayer or worship time, so Kirsty and Mark (the pastor and his wife) prayed for me since it was just us who showed up on time. I had told my house a little of what was going on but I was surprised by Kirsty's word from God for me. She said that she got the sense that normally I am a caregiver in my circle of influence and that right now in this time of being away from my normal life (internship) God wants to care for me. She got a picture of me on a bed with gifts all around me and I am just passing them out to people, so it's like God wants to care for me and give me gifts so that I can care and give to others.

It was exactly what I needed to hear and it totally explained why I had all these feelings for this one guy (I didn't mention that part in the last blog). I didn't know what to do with all of the left over emotions and longings to care for someone so I put that into liking someone even though the whole time I knew that should be going towards God but I didn't know how to do that. Hense the crisis of not knowing how to relate to Jesus.

Then later that day I sat down with Kirsty and we went through these tests in a book called Sacred Pathways to see which pathways were strongest in me. Turns out my highest was Contemplative, then Caregiver, and Intellectual. Which I suppose I always knew I connected to God the most in those ways but it was good to have confirmation and the book also had ideas and warnings etc. for each pathway so it was good to read about them and then learn ways to do them.

So yeah, I am optimistic about the new things to try in my relationship with Jesus, and man, if there is one thing God is always faithful in for me it's speaking through other people!

For Jesus, Kate

All Mixed Up Inside

Hey.

I'm feeling weird and I just need to get it out.

Maybe I just need to stop worrying and just enjoy the present but these last few days I have felt so stuck inside my head and I can't stop thinking about things. Like I briefly mentioned in my last post, I recently came to the realization that I need to change how I see God/Jesus and its oddly stressing me out. Seeing him as an intimate lover is weird because it just doesn't feel right and I had a fine earthly father so I don't feel the need to see him as a dad. I know that it also depends on the situation, and the lesson being learned but I just feel like the old ways that I used to relate to him aren't working anymore. As in I want a more intimate relationship with Jesus, I want to be "Wasted on Jesus" as Jim Goll puts it.

Like, I see enough people around me who are and I read a lot of books and watch speakers on you tube or God tube but I just can't get myself to that point. Physically I am just not sensitive to the Spirit and the spirit realm and I want to be. I don't know if it's a matter of not being desparate enough or what. When I go to the Doug Stanton revivals, I just end up frustrated and mad almost at the people around me because they are all laughing and so full of joy and love and they just receive the Spirit and healing so easily, why can't I? There is this barrier, like a glass ceiling, I can see and KNOW that God is moving all around me but I just can't feel him right now, like I've made it to a certain level of relationship but can't get further. I am sick of KNOWING God, I want to EXPERIENCE him.

And it's hard to find the balance between how much of it is my fault, not spending as much time talking to him and in the word as I should. Or how much is up to him to bless us and show himself supernaturally to us. I want to press in and I try to spend hours praying or "soaking" but I just end up falling asleep or go crazy with all of the thoughts in my head, I don't know how to just listen. Maybe I think he won't answer and I fear that I wouldn't know how to look for the answers either since I am not sensitive.

I am also worrying about my future, now that college ends this year for me and I haven't thought much ahead to be honest. I dread having to actually grow up and pay for everything myself. I have accepted that as a person in ministry I will be poor the rest of my life and I will always have to have another part time job. The Christian college system is messed up, we pay so much for schooling and then have debt forever and usually don't even get to do what we went to school for because we have to get higher paying jobs to be able to pay off some debt. I have some dreams but I am always questioning what I am actually capable of doing or rather what God will use me for.

All I know is that I want an extraordinary life, growing up in the suburbs was great and our family was comfortable financially and I used to pray that one day I could get out of that materialistic bubble and REALLY have to depend on him. Well I think He is starting to answer that prayer...and I am scared. My whole immediate family is struggling with money, and I will be graduating and I want to travel, doing ministry, preferably with a husband but that looks like that won't be happening anytime soon.

This is the way I think I need to see Jesus since it was prophesied over me and all...I am His servant, going around doing ministry, teaching people about the Spirit, healing people, living in the Spirit, following God's every move, and wherever I go the atmosphere changes because I am a woman that brings God's presence with her.

Well I guess that's it. I'm sure I will be over all of this angst in a few days.